[4/17/2011 – couple edits/additions made – mvb]
“These six things does the Lord hate: yea, seven are an abomination unto him: a proud look, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that devises wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, a false witness that speaketh lies, and he that sows discord among brethren.” —Proverbs 6:16-17
I can’t say I’m proud of it, certainly can’t say that ich das nicht gewusst habe*, can’t even remotely pretend that my reasoning was anything else than selfish cowardice: Yes, shame on me: I just paid my taxes to the Internal Revenue Service, a huge well-armed crime syndicate that funnels money to known perpetrators of mass murder(1), producers of weapons of mass destruction(2), overthrowing sovereign nations without provocation (3), engages in information control and truth distortion(4), sponsors and covers for extremely environmentally destructive corporations (5), incarcerates hundreds of thousands for victimless ‘crimes'(6), and so forth, including complicity in the cold-blooded murder of thousands of American citizens almost 10 years ago(7).
The terrorists won the moment I pushed the button ‘SUBMIT’. (I eFiled) It all looked so similar to merely submitting a payment form, a trivial action to settle debt on something I owed, but it was more like ‘me’ submitting, as in “I SUBMIT MYSELF TO YOUR BULLSHIT”
As in a lapse of my dedication to experiential alchemy, I turned my back on the gold of principled adherence to spiritual-truths-inspired lofty ideals of non-negotiable individual sovereignty, dignity, respect, truthfulness, integrity, ahimsa, the birth right of living in alignment with one’s calling, one’s divinity and human potential… Now rests me another year of sadness that I, again, lowered myself to the base frequency of fear, confirmed my submission to the overlords of empire whose authority I have never accepted as valid, nor consider lawfully begotten. I ignored the cries of my fellow brothers and sisters, as found in human rights reports throughout the world… and reverberating through the morphogenetic fields… Ripples of anguish made in dusty torture chambers, emitting through the ether from the rubble of erroneously bombed villages, the raped and beaten left for dead, hidden mass graves and heroine-ruined lives… traveling the ocean of interconnected hearts, palpable on the shores of my mindscape…
How could I? Have I lost my mind??? Have I forgotten somehow what is being done by nearly ALL modern militaries, including by the US in Afghanistan, Iraq, Libya, Colombia,… by the US-paid hired contractors in war zones (like Blackwater Worldwide (now Xe)) , the track record of the still-operational Western Hemisphere Institute for Security Cooperation (formerly named School of the Americas), how that sick LYING puppet in the White House changed his mind on the torture/detention facility at Guantanamo Bay, and so forth… My God, what have I done? Giving these madmen money just because they claim “you must”?
And them Czech cops (that once upon a time in a past I’m supposed to forget about) beat the shit out of me in Prague and kept me incommunicado at the Balkova detention facility in Sept. 2000… should I have forgotten that they too received an FBI-overseen training on how to deal with vocal opposition to corporate dominance? Do I somehow not know what I’m talking about when I speak of torture and inhumane treatments unleashed against peaceful protestors, how few people file reports, and how government accountability is a total farce when push comes to shove? Scroll to page 79-80 in this UN doc, where I’m mentioned by name:
Scroll to Page 79, paragraphs 433-434: http://www.unhchr.ch/Huridocda/Huridoca.nsf/0/9c7af31ada5f6d62c1256ba700409b01/$FILE/G0211402.pdf
I remember it all too well… And I know very well that much of my federal taxes will be wasted on nationalism-driven militaristic nonsense.
Yet I pushed that tiny ‘SUBMIT’ button anyhow – click – deluding myself I was merely submitting a form, knowing all to well I was submitting myself, and — as if (and truly) operating an electronic voting machine — painfully aware that I voted YES on ‘submit the world to more of the same’…
Sick little bastard I am…
All things considered, the actual slice of the pie of my taxes boils down to about 17% went to ‘National Defense” (which translates into mostly international offenses and enormous amounts on weapons and weapons research), but this doesn’t include the entire the black budget, nor money funneled from CIA drug operations, etc. The issue is that I do not want to pay for actions and research that run counter (understatement) to values I hold dear.
For additional resources of how taxes are spent in the USA, see this “tax receipt” calculator: http://www.wheredidmytaxdollarsgo.com/tax_payers and this Mother Jones article: http://motherjones.com/mojo/2011/04/taxes-budget-charts-visualization
– ALSO: A great article on conscientious war tax resistance in Belgium, in Flemish (subscribers only): ‘Stuur geen soldaten, maar vredeswerkers‘ – http://www.standaard.be/artikel/detail.aspx?artikelid=GR38QJ8H -De Standaard – woensdag 13 april 2011 – by Jan Desloover )
* German for “that I didn’t know”, in reference to “wir haben das nicht gewusst” (we didn’t know that [that was happening]), an infamous responsibility-dodging line from right after World War 2, made by Nazi’s and collaborators, in regards to the Holocaust / Genocide of hundreds of thousands of Jews, gays, and other scapegoated groups).
Claims about the United States government (continued under the Obama regime, or left unchanged/unaddressed)
(1) mass murder: http://www.wsws.org/articles/2010/apr2010/emcc-a28.shtml
(2) weapons of mass destruction: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LLCF7vPanrY
(3) overthrowing sovereign nations without provocation: http://www.guernicamag.com/interviews/298/americas_century_of_regime_cha_1/
(4) information control and truth distortion: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=acLW1vFO-2Q (okay, that’s just funny; here’s another if you still need to “get a clue”: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XRLPG_HplrA&feature=player_embedded
(5) sponsors and covers for extremely environmentally destructive corporations: http://www.sourcewatch.org/index.php?title=Corporate_welfare
(6) incarcerates hundreds of thousands for victimless ‘crimes’: http://www.420magazine.com/forums/cannabis-facts-information/104214-tragedy-victimless-crimes-united-states.html
Other SOURCES: Websites I visited while writing this, where some of the above was picked from: http://www.etymonline.com/index.php?term=submission http://deadwildroses.wordpress.com/2009/12/02/torture-yes-we-can/ http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/Evils%20in%20Government/evils_of_the_iraqi_invasion.htm http://publicintelligence.net/usnato-troops-patrolling-opium-poppy-fields-in-afghanistan/ http://www.thestar.com/article/654995 http://nationalpriorities.org/en/resources/federal-budget-101/budget-briefs/federal-discretionary-and-mandatory-spending/ http://www.worldculturepictorial.com/blog/category/tags/military http://www.pakpoint.com/us-soldiers-alleged-rape-sexual-abuse-in-iraq/5374/ http://warnewsupdates.blogspot.com/2009/01/questions-remain-over-us-renditions.html http://theopenscroll.blogspot.com/2010_04_01_archive.html http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xbp6umQT58A http://whatreallyhappened.com/WRHARTICLES/wrh_9-11_index.php http://www.soaw.org/about-the-soawhinsec http://www.huffingtonpost.com/human-rights-first/3-years-after-blackwater_b_719292.html http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80l1ARuGF6U http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UQXZoM__vU0 http://www.cpa.org.au/z-archive/g2000/1018prag.html http://www.himalayanacademy.com/resources/pamphlets/AhimsaNonViolence.html http://www.duhc.org/page/the-hidden-history-of